Recently, I’ve been taking time to carefully assess why I make art. In particular, why in the past I’ve been inspired by drains, utility covers and cracks in the road. After some soul searching, I realized that these objects cover up what lies beneath the surface. They are a reflection of me, the me who has been covering up feelings of shame from painful events and choices made in my past. It seems I’ve been spending far too much time looking down at the ground, perhaps hanging my head in shame. I know I am not alone; there are many of us out there who are or have been in the same situation. But now, I’m on a mission to fight shame with forgiveness and I want to use my art to help me achieve my goal and I want to help others do the same. This blog will document my ideas, may artistic processes and the ups and downs of recovery from addiction and trauma. I hope you join me on my journey.
The other day, I watched a video by Melyssa Griffin, explaining that the way to find my unique purpose on this planet is to find the intersection between how I want to be remembered (Legacy), what brings me joy (Fun) and what I’m good at (Talent). This resonated with me because it’s a very succinct way of describing how I determined my creative purpose through Ann Rea’s course Making Art Making Money.
Some painful soul searching made me realize that I want to be remembered as the person who helped people overcome shame and rebuild their self-esteem. Dancing and doodling bring me joy and make me feel present in the moment. My talent is having the technical skills to turn my dancing and doodling into art. Not just a picture to hang on a wall or a unique note card to write in, but art that inspires forgiveness and dissolves shame. In future posts I will do a better job of documenting my entire artistic process but here is a little tidbit of how my doodles become prints using stencils, ink and beeswax.
This is my original doodle that was inspired by music, generated while I was dancing (more on that in a future post).
A very quick video of me removing stencils from an inked and waxed sheet of Kozoke (Japanese paper) and the finished print before I cut it up into rectangles. Each rectangle was mounted on a 5″x7″ note card which became forgiveness cards shown above.